After the Mic: Unlikely Allies
Watching a conversation four months later
A video reflection on the progress I can see now, with a new perspective on the conversation I recorded four months ago.
Gold in the Cracks
A Memoir of Silence, Performance, and Repair Coming soon
“I carried this for twenty-five years.”
The same wiring that made my body elite at everything measurable was quietly breaking the parts of life no scoreboard could hold.
The story behind Gold in the Cracks
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An early look at Gold in the Cracks, through the words of Sonny Von Cleveland.
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Podcasts, interviews, and appearances exploring the story behind Gold in the Cracks—trauma, performance, identity, fatherhood, and repair.
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UNLIKELY ALLIES
Unlikely Allies
A conversation about trauma, achievement, identity, and the surprising places two very different stories can recognize the same work of healing.
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A conversation with Dave Markel about childhood sexual abuse, the ways trauma can hide inside achievement, and what healing looks like when you are still in it.
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BREAKING THE SILENCE
Breaking the Silence
A conversation about trauma, survival, performance, and what it means to break silence after decades of carrying the story.
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8020 Baseball Podcast
A conversation about smarter warm-ups, constraints-led coaching, more effective practice and drill design, motor learning, and transferring skills from practice into games—along with the personal story behind Gold in the Cracks.
The book
A story buried for twenty-five years—and what happened when it stopped staying buried.
This is a memoir of childhood sexual abuse buried for decades, and of the nervous system that kept telling the story after I stopped using words.
It is also the story of fatherhood, performance, collapse, and the decision to stop mistaking a wound for a personality.
I wrote it while the pieces were still moving—for myself, and for anyone carrying a weight they have never been able to name.
It is a story I wouldn’t change. It made me who I am.
“I am still healing. Pieces are getting put back together, seams still showing. That is the point.”
The architecture of the memoir
This book lives between two words.
One names the repair. The other names the fear that time will run out before the gate closes.
Kintsugi
金継ぎ “golden joinery”
The Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with gold, so the fractures are not hidden but honored.
Torschlusspanik
German “gate-shut panic”
The fear that the door is closing before you have made it through.
This memoir lives in the distance between them: the fear of running out of time, and the slow work of making the breakage into something you would never trade away.
A first look at the book
Begin with Sonny’s foreword.
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