Video essays and writing on performance, trauma, identity, healing, and the things we learn while we are still living them.

Not advice from the finish line. Notes from somewhere in the middle.

The journal

Recent Episodes

Episode 02

Naming It

After the Mic: Unlikely Allies

Watching a conversation four months later

A video reflection on the progress I can see now, with a new perspective on the conversation I recorded four months ago.

Video reflection

Episode 01

Reps

The Monkey Who Didn't Ask

What Prevention Actually Looks Like

Consent, disappointment, emotional skills, and the small moments where prevention actually begins.

Video + essay

Next in the series

Coming Up

Episode 03

Naming It

I Knew How to Keep Going

Learning to Slow Down, Find My Voice, and Heal in Public

Survival taught me how to keep moving. Healing has required learning something very different.

Video + essay

Episode 04

The Book

How I Wrote the Book I Never Planned to Write

The Making of Gold in the Cracks — Part 1

Where the book came from, how I found its structure, and what happened when writing became part of the repair.

Video + essay

Episode 05

From the Outside

Coming next

Close Enough to Hurt

How Survival Patterns Show Up in Friendships and Relationships

Closeness, conflict, distance, people-pleasing, and the old wiring we can unknowingly bring into new relationships.

Upcoming

Episode 06

The Book

Coming later

So You Wrote a Book. Now What?

The Making of Gold in the Cracks — Part 2

Self-publishing from the inside: imprint, production, distribution, websites, mistakes, and figuring it out as I go.

Upcoming

New entries

Weekly through the first four episodes, then every other week.